Breaking Where No One Looks

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Imagine cracking on the inside

and it never been noticed.

You cry during emotional moments
as expected
But the tears have nothing to do with what’s happening.
They belong to something older,
something waiting.

Pain breaks like a levee
So what’s really hurting
slips past unseen.

Everyone expects so much from you,
yet rarely considers you.
They tell you what they think you want to hear,
But you can feel when words are hollow.

It hurts to listen
while knowing
These are lies,
manipulation,
future faking,
love bombing dressed as care.

Partners do it.
Friends do it.
They all do.

When someone wants something,
They perform.
And you know the game.

Knowing is the wound.

Because in seeing them clearly,
It hurts more
You wanted to believe
They were better people.

Every tear carries a story
past, present, future
sliding down supple cheeks,
soaking into fabric,
leaving stains of memory
until they dry.

And then there’s the smile.

You hide behind walls,
afraid your true expression might escape
But here they come,
unannounced,
with their practiced concern.

Because they are not emotionally safe,
you smile
as if life couldn’t possibly be better.

You’ve learned
 Some people show up uninvited
 to take energy
 and your energy
 is not up for grabs.

Living a life
 with many around
 yet still alone
 means picking up your own pieces,
 crying where no one hears,
 and breaking
 silently.

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