Don’t Awaken What You Don’t Intend to Feed

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It’s been years since I locked it up and put it away.

When I secure the lock, I can breathe again. I move lighter, think clearly, and pour all that passion into purpose. My focus sharpens. My manifestations multiply. My joy stretches wider. I thrive when I am not awakened.

But when I am…
At first, it feels like oxygen after being underwater — fresh, full, and freeing. Then, slowly, deprivation creeps in. It’s like tasting sweetness only to be left craving what never comes again. The ache doesn’t arrive all at once; it lingers, stretching itself across every part of me that once felt alive.

When I speak up about the hunger, the silence that follows feels louder than words. My honesty hits the floor like shattered glass,  visible, but ignored. So, I stand there, half-awake, half-starved, wondering why I was stirred only to be left empty.

Why open the book if you had no plans to finish the story?
Why wash the hair if you're going to leave it dripping?
Why turn the oven on and walk away?
Why disturb my peace just to leave me restless?

Because once that door is opened, closing it again feels like lifting a mountain. The energy you awoke begins to search for completion not just in flesh, but in fulfillment. It wants to be fed with intention, consistency, and care.

So I find myself doing the only thing I know how to do: resetting. Locking the cage again. Rebuilding the walls that were so carefully dismantled. I remind myself that not everyone who knocks deserves to be let in. Some people are just curious about the light behind the door, not the weight it carries.

To awaken something is to take responsibility for what stirs, whether it’s desire, emotion, or potential. To leave it starving is cruelty disguised as connection.

So if you ever find yourself tempted to awaken what you cannot satisfy within someone or within yourself, don’t. Because awakening without intention is not passion, it’s a disturbance. And some of us have fought too hard for peace to trade it for chaos that calls itself love.


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