Awakened by Realizations

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Realizations
 they come to open our eyes,
 but sometimes,
 I want to close them again.

They hurt.
 They’re sharp.
 They are truths wrapped in barbed wire
 that tear through illusions
 you prayed would stay intact.

Realizations
 they sit heavy in your chest,
 an ache prescription painkillers
 can’t even touch.
 The doctor thought
 ibuprofen would do the trick,
 but they only “practice” medicine
 while I practice breathing
 through heartbreak.

Realizations
 they can freeze a heart
 that once overflowed with grace.
 Knowing you were good to people
 only to be played
 that kind of betrayal
 activates a side of you
 you sometimes can’t come back from.

Realizations
 they make you question everything:
 every “friend,”
 every “I love you,”
 every moment
 you thought was safe.
 They make you question yourself, too,
 and the parts of you
 that tolerated,
 that forgave,
 that kept hoping.

But here’s the thing about realizations:
 they are not stumbling blocks,
 though they trip you.
 They are not punishments,
 though they sting.
 They are torches
 they illuminate paths
 you wouldn’t have seen otherwise.

And when you choose to follow them,
 they lead you out of cycles.
 If you ignore them,
 you’ll just meet them again,
 wearing a different face,
 with a different voice,
 but the same lesson.

Every realization has awakened me.
 Each one has been a key,
 unlocking pieces of my soul
 I didn’t know were caged.
 Painful? Yes.
 Necessary? Absolutely.
 I’d rather face the truth
 and walk free
 than live blind
 and call it peace.


Thanks for reading.

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